"Our Deepest Fears" part 2

  So i did a post about this a while back. its the movie Coach Carter. the part im talking about is when they are in the gym after the lockout ended and Timo Cruz (the thug with mix feelings of what his life should be)  stands up and answers the question Coach Carter ask through out the video. which is "what is your deepest fear?" the whole team would be in confusion with the thought.

At this part of the movie Timo answers the question finally and says "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."



The actual quote is from Nelson Mandela. in his quote theres another sentence. it says "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God."
on this past sunday. there was a girl who was ashamed of being a girl. she was  a tomboy cuz boys are so much awesomer! (true statement lol) but she just had such a hard time with coping of being a girl. finally after 15 years she accepted it. she a gorgeous, beautiful girl. but as far as going with Mandela's quote. was she the one that was asking that question... who am i to be...? im glad she bore her testimony. it really helped me out. cuz alot of the time i ask that very same question who am i to be? can i be brillant?, talented?.. i also bore my testimony. probably the best testimony meeting ive been to in a while. hear alot of great phrases. "never let your potential be limitless", "lets hang ourselves together or spiritually hang separately" such a great meeting to be apart of. everyone who shared had this qoute shot into my mind. it applied to everyone in their own way.

I truley believe this is true. ive been through sooo many trails and some days i feel like why. but i know that with our Heavenly father he will never put us through something we can't handle. i really like the line "We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone." it has been through my friends that ive been able to get through it all. as well through prayer and faith, and my wonderful siblings. we are who we are. The fact of the matter is. its what WE put in it and HOW we look at it.  and what we go through will strenghenth us in the end. i know that and testify of that.  i love this quote and i apply it to my life and recommend everyone does to. love the movie and the actors in it. a way good movie! :) i figured i put in my thoughts and such.



I apologize for not keeping up with my blog. i will try my hardest to do that! but im seeing this a great start off! ;) life is good. diabeties is great!, blood sugar is low, high blood pressure is gone! im losing weight and doing more insanity! :) can't wait to see what in store for the future.. mission? yes! love you all and especially love my family you know who you are! thanks!
Mike.

My Preparations! :)

So i bought a journal over the weekend! this is what it looks like! its a leather front and back, and has the wording of Carpe Diem on the front. when i first grabbed it i was like wha the... carpe diem.. i was total chick book! so i was with my buddy zach and he explained to me what that meant. and for those who don't know what it means let me help ya out!  it means "to seize the day" when i heard that i was really moved by it. everyone trys to size their own days. and ive had a rough life and i always had to do that. so i was emotional, spiritualy, moved so i bought it. i just wrote my first 2 pages today. all about conference what a great conference that was :). but this journal will prepare me for my mission and just to get back in the writing mode.

Im glad i bought i can already feel great things to come from this :) it should be awesome! super excited. This will set me off striaght and i get to really ponder about stuff, which i will apply to alot of things. anywho just wanted to brag about the sweet journal i bought! be jealous cuz if i didn't have this and someone else did i would totally be. haha.

TMNT!!!!

Can i honestly tell you how much i love this show!? Such a great movie all are my favorites to watch. you have the first one TMNT where they are first born and really find out what it is about being a family. then you have TMNT Secret of the ooze and they find out how they were born, as well as finishing off the Shrat dude! (Sherrder) then you have the TMNT 3 where they are timed traveled to japan in the early hundreds of samurais and cannons.

Anyways! my favorite part of the 2nd movie is where they are dancing in the middle of the Vanilla ice concert! heres a picture if you don't remember!

Such a great dance! they turtles know go to get down! haha. i love it. i wanna learn now too! ha who is in with me? lets do it eh. lets do it! haha. i just love the bond between this brothers. it reminds me alot of my me and my sibs. i saw this movie last night with a friend. who is having a hard time. so i brought him back to his childhood adn man he was laughing and having a good time! we watched all 4. haha thus im tired. but it was well worth it i think both of us needed that!.



But i wanted to chat about the turtles and because they are awesome who doesn't! you know but i hope and strive that we can be more like them paient, curdious, kind, etc. and be a botherhood. or sister hood. either one is great! and you know how they say it! COWABUNGA!!!!!!

IM FINALLY DONE!!!! HAHAH

so i finally finished that 30 day blog im sorry its taken what almost 3 months to do... yikes i apologize. but now ive found another that will keep me enticed and ill fulfill it to the end! :) anywho i hpe you all enjoyed what i post. you guys are all awesome! thanks for all you do! love you guys all! :)

Day 30. Who are you?

To start things off my name is mike and im Fluffy... I love wrestling. its has influenced my life. i did 4yrs in highschool and i might for college. but what i went through in highschool with wrestling just made me stronger. you know as they say... "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

Anyways i love drawing. when i draw its like being in my own world. I put my ideas and creativity on paper. dancing is big in my life as well. Krumping to be exact. It totally brings out the best of me. most people think that just because im a big kid doesnt mean i know how to get down. but trust me i do!!

I'm from fresno, california. born and almost raised there. but then i moved to utah. I have been living here for basically half my life. At first i really regretted moving here, left all my family, friends, but now i love it. I have met great people who have changed my life, as well as my friends. Love you all. I graduated from Pleasant Grove high school year 2007. Im a VIKING ALL THE WAY!! whoot whoot.

Now about me... hmm what can i say. Im basically a teddy bear. i like to cuddle, chill, and eat. sometimes sleep. not all the time though. i love being outdoors and going on trips. chilling with friends and putting smiles on peoples faces. I honestly think thats why im here. :D The thing about me is that im really laid back and chill and when i say im always gonna be there for you i totally mean it. I dont judge people like i did before or in the past. Even when i seem like im the happiest person alive i always seems to have a burden on my shoulders. but i have had a tough life i just try to make the best of it.

For a while i lived without a parent.. it was just my siblings, Phil (19) and Kimmy (17). It has roughly been about 2 years without our mom. Our dad left when we were young, our step dad ran off. its been really tough and ive had to be a adult from a young age. It really tears you apart. You change to care for the people you love as well as the lifestyles. i konw it wasn't easy for our mom to take off, and help a family member in need. i know it was the toughest thing in the world. i can't understand how you can be away from your kids that long and keep your sanity i know it would break me down... one thing about my family is we never give up. we always tread froward with a open mind that it will get better. My mother is finally back. now i can't live my life less stressed because i know my mom can finally take over and be the parent she always wanted to be and now i can work on my own things. i wanna prepare for a mission, go to school, be a kid i couldn't be. i know that things will turn for the best. and i cannot wait to brace what the future holds.

Life is a blessing. Your never promised tomorrow... so live it as if it were your last. If you ain't laughing you ain't living!

Love you guys all, as well as followers and friends and family, Much loves!

Day 29. in this past month, what have you learned?

hmm... lets see what have i learned in the past month?

that i love my roomates. ive reunited with old freinds, living on your own is still way harder than i thought. life is going good.

ive learned new meanings to when it comes to the gospel and what a amazing thing it is and has been to me and my family and friends :). i love this experience and i hope i lose enough weight for my mission!
i learned that insanity (the workout) lives up to its name. theres a million differnet things.
ive learned to cope with my trails. i know the lord will never put me in a situation he knows i won't handle wish i would of known that earlier but im glad its taken me this long to figure that out. 

but mostly ive learn who i am better. that im a strong individual. that life not always will hand you lemonade. but he will give you the supplies to make your own.  i love what has come into my life and can't wait to see what else comes in store! :)

Day 28. a picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then.

Alright im stoked about this one! i hopefully think you can see a difference in me!

So this is a picture of me and my sibs at a friends wedding reception. we look fly i love it! at this time i weight about 360. and i think i was diabetic this time. oh at least found out i was. i was a big boy still am now.  but lately ive been doing this work out called insanity! since then ive lost alot of weight.  you all ready for what i look like now! :)
 

This is me now! weighing at a whopping 310! :) i look good and i feel great! thanks insanity for that awesome workout cant' wait till i start it up again and get that six pack ive longed for! :) plus the new addition to me is my sick mohawk and steps! :) love it!

so this is what i used to look like to what i do look like now :) here ya go!