day-8 short term goals for the month and why.

short term goals.... hmm... i guess. it would be to develop a plan, a nutrition plan, a workout, and prepare my self to go on a mission. to get in the best shape of my life! cuz i know that when the time comes for getting my call it will be worth soo much more because i worked at it sooo hard! short term is to make some money, fix my car. another short term goal is to coach jv wrestling and stick with it everyday! i cna't think of anymore... so there you have it! :D

Day-7 a picture of somone/somthing that has had the biggest impact on you.

well first thing is i don't have a picture of diabeties... but i will talk about that as well. as far as someone impacting my life. i would have to say Bri. she is such a wonderful young lady. (even tho im only older by like a few months) anywho. wow. what can i say about bri. Bri i hope your reading this cuz im going all out! bri has been my friend and best friend for as long as i can remember. im going to go out on a whim and say about 7 yrs maybe more. i could be wrong. im not good on my facts, bri however is so ask her.. lol. she has been there for me in and out, in whatever struggle i was going through. there was times i gave up. or looked at the negative. and bri was always there to tell me what i needed to hear. she really beat me down... but she would always bring me to higher ground. she has always been my inspiration and a great guidence. a time i know that she helped me was when my mom left to cali. for 2 1/2 years i was sooo vulnerable to the situation but she was there to life my spirits i know for a fact i would of not been able to do that all that time if it wasn't for her. and of course my other firends. bri is a great individual. she has soo much potential and is using it as we speak! ha. she has a great voice (she sings), great determination, has passion, love, authenticity, brilliant, i could go on. but above all she a great friend! and is family and very close to my heart. love you bri!


now, the Diabetes, this is a very emotional subject. because i never thought in my whole life i would get diagnose, my grandma who i love and cherish is on her death bed because of it. she doing loads better now. but im very close to her and it scared me when she was in the hospital for a heart attack and low blood sugar. when i was diagnose in july. i was soooo terrified. i thought i was going to end up on the same track as my grandma. i was scared. and giving excuses in life. one of my main problems at the time is i ate sooo much. and never worked out. just ate and ate until i was stuffed. but after finding out. its been about 5 months now. i feel great. im on meds, ive lost alot of weight and only to lose more to go on my mission! so now im more athletic and im not a huge burden on my self or on others. :D the diabeties showed me a lesson and before i thought it was a burden now i know that its not its a blessing in disguise. the lord works in mysterious ways. i know that anything i go through well not be without his help. ive learned about my self and that lord will never ever put me in a trail i can't get through so its great and i love with whats been going on. can't wait to see what lies in the future.

guess im done! ha. enjoy!

work, work, work!

so i know i should be stickin to the 30 days. but i can't remember the things to do it from. so im at work. and it won't let me on facebook to see the list! so im just chilling... its nice the job is great. fun ppl, and a good enviorment! i work part time for now. 6am-1130am. its really nice. but if i don't go into full time soo i might just pick up another shift and work two part time jobs! so yea. this past week has been amazing and a really inspiring way. i went to a seminar. and learn alot of myself. and i really learned to let go of the negaitvie things in my life. it was really a great week! met some awesome people who i have really connected with and on top of all. met great staff and i love my buddies cna't wait to see you all on tuesday! but enough of that hahahaha.

so ive been thinkin of my hair... its getting very long... its probably a good 4 inches of hair and i put it up as a mohawk. haha. gotta love it. so im thinking,,, thinking... should i chop it off... maybe trim it a bit... i dunno. ill probalby be asking everyone soon. cuz i really dont' know what to do wit it. im afraid its gonna be a distraction soon. haha. should i keep it or chop it or trim it.. ugh the many life decisions we choose. gott love it.

so ive got some awesome news! i learned the magical number of the weight lost i gotta do to go on a mission. and the magical number is...... can you guess.... its 230, i weigh 304 so its about 70 pounds. which is doable! and im stoked! i can't wait to get all the weight off! and tell all of you where i go! ssooooooooooooooooo excited! ive seen it change some of my firends lives and i cannot wait whats in store for it! anywho... i think im done chatting... better get back to work! lol.

Day-6 My favorite superhero and why.

ok. sweet this is been one i was looking forward to doing. not saying the other ideas are nothing.. they are! ha.

so i chose The Incredible Hulk. lots of reasons. the hulk is a bad A dude! he can be this intelligent being, a scientist, but if you make him mad, he can be this hulk of power! thus the name hulk. i guess in my life i feel like the hulk. that im bruce banner, getting bullied and made fun of. i never exploded with power as the hulk. but i did on myself, i punched walls punched things instead of ppl. i guess thats when the hulk woudl come out. the hulk is this huge being, but if calmed down he is a gentle giant. well he can be. but if startled he can turn in to a load of problems. the hulk has always been my fav superhero. we have similar qualitys. he fights for good. at least trys if he is not confused. i know im that way. the hulk reminds me of myself alot of the times. this gentle giant with loads of power. but i love the power through the hulk. his strength is a big one, he has his sonic boom clap, he says awesome things like " HULK SMASH!", ''HULK SMASH PUNY MAN!"  good stuff. lol. he has the ability to run and jump to glide through the air! hulk is one amazing being. and thats why i love him. he is indestructable. and can win anything! he has heart and cares! so do i! :D

Day 5- A picture of somewhere you have been too.

sooo ive been kinda behind.. so ill be posting like 3 things hahahah. but a place ive been too is cali! :D

the beach is my favorite place to visit i remember growing up with the sibs and family we would go alot and swim and have bbqs! best thing ever! i plan on visiting it very soon! and anyone who wants to join let me know! lol. i love the beach and soon it will be my home!

Day 4- A habit i wish i didn't have.

i guess my biggest habit i have is being too selfless.. i don't care enough of myself i rather put people first than before my own. i can't take care of myslef. i have to know and take care of others! this is what i need to face and fix, because i know it will tear me apart later. i will try to improve this. try to work it out. be more on my own. independant. and hopefully not dependant on others. i guess thats my true habit i wish i didn't have, i wish i had learned different than sacrificing my ownself for others don't get me worng its a great quaility to have but i need to take care of myslef. at least that how i feel about it.....

Day 3- picture of me and my friends

i guess ill just post pics of me and my friends on this. i have alot of firends and don't really have a huge group shot so ill just post a few :D

there you go! :D