Day-14 a Picture of you and your family.

Ok. so this is not gonna be like everyone elses. my family only consists of two ppl. My brother. Phil, and Sister Kimmy. so for this i will just be talking about my sibs becuase the past 2 1/2 years they are what i needed as a family to continue on and stay on track. plus they are the cutest sibs in the world! ha. anywho, here they are! enjoy!

so first of we will start from the youngest and go from there. lol. the first would have to be my lil sis Kimmy. wow she has all this energy and hype. its great! she knows how to be funny, when to be a brat, and just a fun loving person to be around with. she had some troubles lately but who doesn't. Kim has matured alot since our mother left. she used to be just this crazy teenager! (which i miss) but now it seems that she feels like she is a adult. and she is not. she still a kid. but acts like she needs to be a adult right away becuase her brothers (phil, and i) had to grow up soo fast. but thats not the case. she has a few goals in life right now, such as getting a car, graduating high school and being independent.

she got alot to live for. she works part time at KFC. she is doing great been there for about 6-7 months i think. and surprisingly she can keep her school work up and manage a job all at once! she awesome at stuff like that. its funny tho. kim a few days ago came to me with homework (i havn't been in school in 4yrs) lol she only came to me to draw out her homework assignment!  i was like wtf! i didn't realize i was doing half the homework for her.! it was still fun. i just gave the basic sketch and just had her draw it to the best of her abilitys. i know that when my mom left it really hurt kim. i mean a 15 year old daughter not having her mother around it just terrible. kim had no support in anything. the only support she had was her brother and i, and we tried our hardest to fully support. she is a great singer! she tells me i am too i don't beleve her! she can be funny all the time. knows how to put a smile on me and my brothers face. she is a great gal. and im excited for whats in store for her in the future.

Oh i almost forgot! its kimmys bday on friday! she will be 17! she will start wearing her big girl pants! ha. so i just wanna do a shout out to my seester! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR AWESOME! happy 17th! :D



Next we have my lil bro Phil, now this kid is just straight real. nothing fake about this guy. he will be soo blunt to you it will hurt. trust me he does it to me all the time. thinks he like the king of samoa but he isn't in all real cases he just a little bro. but this little bro has gone through alot of stuff. which is making him stronger, and ease up on the dumb things in life. he dropped out of high school. i don't know the main reason i think it was because the classes were really long. or somthing on that sense... lol he would of been a great football player. he was trying out but then he dropped out. the coaches were really impressed by his athletic abilities, phil is great guy, knows how to treat a lady and respect ppl who respect him back. he a stud. and just bought his own car. and is stoked for christmas becuase we are going to cali to be with family. so it should be great! for the longest time my brother and i butted heads pretty well. we didnt' like each other and just didn't cross paths. it was like this untila little before my mom had to leave to cali to take care of some family things. just put our differences aside and became a family. with our little sister. we became a trifecta, having nothing in our way. but just to be who we are and live on our own. i won't lie it was pretty hard and we had to sacrifice everythign! but we had help mainly from the church. which i will never forget the compassion i recieved from that ward :D

Phil is a great brother, and a great friend we have a usual days and our not usual days. ha. but i still love that kid to death. he got alot of potential, and i wanna see it blossom to somthing fantanstic! all in all i love my fam. and i know without them i would fall. they are my my back up and support and my best friends. i love them with all my heart, and im stoked for whats entitled in the future! :D

there you have it. alittle about my fam. hope you like it!

Day-13 a letter to someone who has hurt you.

This isn't really easy for me to do, because I hate letting people go,  I can get really annoyed sometimes, but as far as getting offended and holding grudges, that's really not me. at least i dont' think... So here it goe...

To the people who have used me: Congratulations. You have successfully managed to fool me into trusting you. I'll admit that in the past I would easily trust people. I guess I just have a habit of believing in the best in people. But you were especially good. You we able to lure me into your little trap, and trick me into confiding in you and sharing times with you that I thought would end up being a special memory. And in the end all I was left with was emptiness. Time wasted with someone that I thought was special. Someone who I thought could be trusted. But it turns out that the trick is on you, because I don't trust people that easily anymore. And when it comes to you, you lost your chance. Sure I can forgive you, and to be honest I already have. But just because I've forgiven you, doesn't mean I will ever have to trust you again. 

To the people who have built themselves up by tearing me down: I bet you think you're pretty special. You managed to make yourself feel good by walking over me. You got the best of me and then left me there to deal with the what I was left with. Well, once again, the joke is on you. You may think that by walking over me you were getting yourself somewhere, but the truth is, every time you've tried to tear me down, all you've succeeded in doing is making me stronger. 

Last but not least...

To the people who have pretended to be my friend:  You may think that because I'm only 21-that because I'm not as old as you or don't have as much "life experience" as you do that I don't know what a friend is. You may think that I don't notice the way you use me when it is most convenient for you, because I smile and agree with you and do whatever you ask me to do. You may think that I think you are a good friend. But the truth is, I notice it all. I notice when you use me. I notice when you talk about me behind my back but still act like you're the world's best friend to my face. I notice when you pick up your phone and look through your contacts, wishing you were spending time with somebody else. I notice when the only time you ever want to hang out, is when you can't find something better to do.

In all honesty, the prize goes to you guys, because out of everybody you're the ones who has hurt me the most. You are the ones I really cared about, and for awhile, I honestly believed that you cared too.  But I've got news for you. There are people that have taught me what a real friend is supposed to be. I've got people who honestly care about me, the things I do, and are more worried about my well being than they are about their own agenda. So I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasted so much time trying to turn you guys into the friends I hoped you would be. I'm sorry I spent so much time doing things for you even when I knew the only reason you asked is because you knew I was the only one who would do it. I'm sorry I let you guys use me and gave you guys so much trust. And I'm sorry I can't be there for you guys anymore. Because being your friend has been a mistake. I guess it's true though, you can't change people...and thank heavens for that, because I would have been devastated if you would've succeeded in your plot to change me.

Day-12 how did you find out about blogs and why you made one.

well i guess i found out about blogs through my buddies. alot of them have one and always are talking about it. and at first i was skeptical, cuz i didn't want ppl to know about my life. it felt dumb at the time. lol. but then later i found out that it like a journal. but ppl read. i became intriged and was like sure ill make one!. cuz i have a lot of friends that are super busy with life, and wanna know whats going on in my life. so this is a good way for them to hear about it. ;D.

why i made one. i guess i want ppl to see who i am. i want to be able to express myself,  also i hope that the words i post up weather it be a blog challenge or somthing that happen to me personally i want to be able to share something that i think or know that beneifted me or otherwise can benefit someone else. i mean we are all put on this earth to learn. and i think a good way for ppl to learn is hearing about others lives i know ive heard countless of amazing stories and it has brighten my day  or made my  week even. so i guess these are the reasons i made one. and i thought it be a sweet idea!

Day-11 another picture of you and your friends.

so here is another pic of most of my buddies. its was taken a while back at a group outing we did. at PPT. (power progressive tumbling) it was a way fun night. sumo suits and just craziness! here are some of the pictures from the night! :D

Day-10 the songs i listen to when im happy, sad, bored, mad, hyped.

well sweet. somthing about music! alright. to start off music is my life. it makes me feel good :D it can alway pump me up for somthing epic or make me relax and draw, or just chill and make me sleep. lol. so here it is as follows

Happy: Black suits comin. Will Smith (i can't rap the entire thing and it makes me jolly :D)

Sad: I have a dream. Common (this song brings tears to my eyes, its off the movie freedom writers its the theme song but it talks about having a dream like marther luther king. and how we all need to have that purpose in life to change)

Bored: Forever. Chris Brown (i tend to listen to over played songs or old songs i havn't heard of in a long time. when im bored. lol)

Mad: Scream or Crawl.  Avenge Sevenfold and Breaking Benjamin (screamo is just awesome makes my mad go on steriods but i won't do anything haha. just love the screams)

Hyped. Heart of a Champion or Fuel. Nelly and Metallica (these two i listen to very much. especially in high school for wrestling this is what got me pumped! i love it!

Day-9 something im proud of in the past few days.

something that i would be proud of in the past few days would be, im made better connections with some friends, also with some family. i got to talk to my dad that was really nice. ive seem to make my connection with my brother really well. he and i enjoy each others company. wheather it be palying xbox or going to get a bite to eat. so im really proud of that. before i felt really distant from alot of ppl mainly my family. but now its getting better. and turning for the best! im stoked and im hoping that it will be really a blessing in my life. cuz i love everyone! so i guess my family and friends is what im proud of as of the moment.

day-8 short term goals for the month and why.

short term goals.... hmm... i guess. it would be to develop a plan, a nutrition plan, a workout, and prepare my self to go on a mission. to get in the best shape of my life! cuz i know that when the time comes for getting my call it will be worth soo much more because i worked at it sooo hard! short term is to make some money, fix my car. another short term goal is to coach jv wrestling and stick with it everyday! i cna't think of anymore... so there you have it! :D