Day 30. Who are you?

To start things off my name is mike and im Fluffy... I love wrestling. its has influenced my life. i did 4yrs in highschool and i might for college. but what i went through in highschool with wrestling just made me stronger. you know as they say... "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

Anyways i love drawing. when i draw its like being in my own world. I put my ideas and creativity on paper. dancing is big in my life as well. Krumping to be exact. It totally brings out the best of me. most people think that just because im a big kid doesnt mean i know how to get down. but trust me i do!!

I'm from fresno, california. born and almost raised there. but then i moved to utah. I have been living here for basically half my life. At first i really regretted moving here, left all my family, friends, but now i love it. I have met great people who have changed my life, as well as my friends. Love you all. I graduated from Pleasant Grove high school year 2007. Im a VIKING ALL THE WAY!! whoot whoot.

Now about me... hmm what can i say. Im basically a teddy bear. i like to cuddle, chill, and eat. sometimes sleep. not all the time though. i love being outdoors and going on trips. chilling with friends and putting smiles on peoples faces. I honestly think thats why im here. :D The thing about me is that im really laid back and chill and when i say im always gonna be there for you i totally mean it. I dont judge people like i did before or in the past. Even when i seem like im the happiest person alive i always seems to have a burden on my shoulders. but i have had a tough life i just try to make the best of it.

For a while i lived without a parent.. it was just my siblings, Phil (19) and Kimmy (17). It has roughly been about 2 years without our mom. Our dad left when we were young, our step dad ran off. its been really tough and ive had to be a adult from a young age. It really tears you apart. You change to care for the people you love as well as the lifestyles. i konw it wasn't easy for our mom to take off, and help a family member in need. i know it was the toughest thing in the world. i can't understand how you can be away from your kids that long and keep your sanity i know it would break me down... one thing about my family is we never give up. we always tread froward with a open mind that it will get better. My mother is finally back. now i can't live my life less stressed because i know my mom can finally take over and be the parent she always wanted to be and now i can work on my own things. i wanna prepare for a mission, go to school, be a kid i couldn't be. i know that things will turn for the best. and i cannot wait to brace what the future holds.

Life is a blessing. Your never promised tomorrow... so live it as if it were your last. If you ain't laughing you ain't living!

Love you guys all, as well as followers and friends and family, Much loves!

Day 29. in this past month, what have you learned?

hmm... lets see what have i learned in the past month?

that i love my roomates. ive reunited with old freinds, living on your own is still way harder than i thought. life is going good.

ive learned new meanings to when it comes to the gospel and what a amazing thing it is and has been to me and my family and friends :). i love this experience and i hope i lose enough weight for my mission!
i learned that insanity (the workout) lives up to its name. theres a million differnet things.
ive learned to cope with my trails. i know the lord will never put me in a situation he knows i won't handle wish i would of known that earlier but im glad its taken me this long to figure that out. 

but mostly ive learn who i am better. that im a strong individual. that life not always will hand you lemonade. but he will give you the supplies to make your own.  i love what has come into my life and can't wait to see what else comes in store! :)

Day 28. a picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then.

Alright im stoked about this one! i hopefully think you can see a difference in me!

So this is a picture of me and my sibs at a friends wedding reception. we look fly i love it! at this time i weight about 360. and i think i was diabetic this time. oh at least found out i was. i was a big boy still am now.  but lately ive been doing this work out called insanity! since then ive lost alot of weight.  you all ready for what i look like now! :)
 

This is me now! weighing at a whopping 310! :) i look good and i feel great! thanks insanity for that awesome workout cant' wait till i start it up again and get that six pack ive longed for! :) plus the new addition to me is my sick mohawk and steps! :) love it!

so this is what i used to look like to what i do look like now :) here ya go!

"Our Deepest Fear"

so i watched Coach Carter last night. and theres a quote in it that hits me everytime i hear it. its when they are in the gym after the lockout ended and Timo Cruz stands up and answers the question Coach Carter ask. which is "what is your deepest fear?" Timo says "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

I truley believe this is true. ive been through sooo many trails and some days i feel like why. but i know that with our Heavenly father he will never put us through something we can't handle. i really like the line "We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone." it has been through my friends that ive been able to get through it all. as well through prayer and faith, and my wonderful siblings. we are who we are. and what we go through will strenghenth us in the end. i love this quote and i applie it to my life and recommend everyone does to.

anywho i just had to put that out! love this movie and the principles it shows! :)

Day 27. why are you doing this 30 day challenge

i guess the reason i did this 30 day challenge was to have it start a habit of blogging everyday or close to everyday, unfortunatly i failed miserably i didnt' stay up with it and now im finally finishin up in like a 3 month fram.. what the heck i know im sorry! but i will finish this up and try my best to blog more. my friend introduced me to the 30 day blog. and i just was soo excited and pump to start i started out well and was doing good then things came up and so on and so forth! lol. but it taught me how to think, feel and express my self through writing. which is a great quality! and i appreciate all those who do it. its not easy and its time consuming to. so my hat goes out to those who do it regularly! i promise i will finish this and maybe ill start it up again. but i will keep bloggin for a while i am going on a mission soon. so hopefully ill find someone to blog for me and keep at it for 2 years! hahahah. anywho there you have it. :) love you all!

Day 26. what you think about your friends

ive always thought about this. i have a lot of frineds some i wish i could still be friends with but we have grown apart. other i have that i cherish and love! we have good times. my friends and i know how to have fun its alwasy like that. we always try to up the next day. we are never bored. my friends mean the world to me. ever since i was alone with my sibs my friends and leaders were my support and boy they knew how to hlep out. there was never i time i thought i was cursed or was gonna fail. well i felt like i was but i was never in doubt that i wouldnt' get through it. and its through my friends and family that im the way i am. taht im this jolly guy who loves his life. i care for everyone. weather it be a barley known. a old friend, new friend, whatever it may be. its the reason i live fore to make new friends visit with old. friends are really what makes you wanna live. personally that is what i feel. :) but my friends are awesome and know me and love me for who i am. and im glad ive got to known each and every one of them.

Day 25. what i would find in your bag

this really will be short and sweet! haha. jk. so im not a girl so i dont' have a bag the only bags i have are my gym bag and wrestling bag. so here you go!

Gym Bag
Consists of 1 pair of track shoes
Shirt
Shorts
Water Bottle
Ipod

Wrestling Bag
3 Shrits (because you sweat a ton...)
2 Shorts same reason.. ha
Ipod
My sick adidas blue wrestling shoes
knee pad
Headgear
Mouth piece


so that is what i have in my bags! ha