Day 28. a picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then.

Alright im stoked about this one! i hopefully think you can see a difference in me!

So this is a picture of me and my sibs at a friends wedding reception. we look fly i love it! at this time i weight about 360. and i think i was diabetic this time. oh at least found out i was. i was a big boy still am now.  but lately ive been doing this work out called insanity! since then ive lost alot of weight.  you all ready for what i look like now! :)
 

This is me now! weighing at a whopping 310! :) i look good and i feel great! thanks insanity for that awesome workout cant' wait till i start it up again and get that six pack ive longed for! :) plus the new addition to me is my sick mohawk and steps! :) love it!

so this is what i used to look like to what i do look like now :) here ya go!

"Our Deepest Fear"

so i watched Coach Carter last night. and theres a quote in it that hits me everytime i hear it. its when they are in the gym after the lockout ended and Timo Cruz stands up and answers the question Coach Carter ask. which is "what is your deepest fear?" Timo says "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

I truley believe this is true. ive been through sooo many trails and some days i feel like why. but i know that with our Heavenly father he will never put us through something we can't handle. i really like the line "We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone." it has been through my friends that ive been able to get through it all. as well through prayer and faith, and my wonderful siblings. we are who we are. and what we go through will strenghenth us in the end. i love this quote and i applie it to my life and recommend everyone does to.

anywho i just had to put that out! love this movie and the principles it shows! :)

Day 27. why are you doing this 30 day challenge

i guess the reason i did this 30 day challenge was to have it start a habit of blogging everyday or close to everyday, unfortunatly i failed miserably i didnt' stay up with it and now im finally finishin up in like a 3 month fram.. what the heck i know im sorry! but i will finish this up and try my best to blog more. my friend introduced me to the 30 day blog. and i just was soo excited and pump to start i started out well and was doing good then things came up and so on and so forth! lol. but it taught me how to think, feel and express my self through writing. which is a great quality! and i appreciate all those who do it. its not easy and its time consuming to. so my hat goes out to those who do it regularly! i promise i will finish this and maybe ill start it up again. but i will keep bloggin for a while i am going on a mission soon. so hopefully ill find someone to blog for me and keep at it for 2 years! hahahah. anywho there you have it. :) love you all!

Day 26. what you think about your friends

ive always thought about this. i have a lot of frineds some i wish i could still be friends with but we have grown apart. other i have that i cherish and love! we have good times. my friends and i know how to have fun its alwasy like that. we always try to up the next day. we are never bored. my friends mean the world to me. ever since i was alone with my sibs my friends and leaders were my support and boy they knew how to hlep out. there was never i time i thought i was cursed or was gonna fail. well i felt like i was but i was never in doubt that i wouldnt' get through it. and its through my friends and family that im the way i am. taht im this jolly guy who loves his life. i care for everyone. weather it be a barley known. a old friend, new friend, whatever it may be. its the reason i live fore to make new friends visit with old. friends are really what makes you wanna live. personally that is what i feel. :) but my friends are awesome and know me and love me for who i am. and im glad ive got to known each and every one of them.

Day 25. what i would find in your bag

this really will be short and sweet! haha. jk. so im not a girl so i dont' have a bag the only bags i have are my gym bag and wrestling bag. so here you go!

Gym Bag
Consists of 1 pair of track shoes
Shirt
Shorts
Water Bottle
Ipod

Wrestling Bag
3 Shrits (because you sweat a ton...)
2 Shorts same reason.. ha
Ipod
My sick adidas blue wrestling shoes
knee pad
Headgear
Mouth piece


so that is what i have in my bags! ha

Day 24. a letter to your parents

 so i think its mainly towards my dad who left me when i was young. so here it is!

Dad,

its me your son mike. you probably don't know much of me because you have been gone 20 yrs of my life. im now 21. having the opportunitiy to meet you last year was great. ive had a heart soo empty becuase you were not a part of it. now that ive met you its now whole, mostly. even tho we have met and gotten to chat and know each other a bit better, im still sooo frustrated with you. im mad at your leaving. why? what did i do wrong? did you not love me? theres all these things i want to confront you about and i know i can't or im scared.what was soo hard about being there for me. i had to learn how to fight without you. shave, meet girls girls are sooo scary! my first date. i had 20 birthdays without you! how could you leave wihtout a care. and now you all of sudden care! how dare you try to step in my life after you bailed like a coward. dad. i want to love you. but how can i trust you to stay with me. to love me. theres soo much in my lifeat stake from trustin you agian. my life has been terrible without you. i feel lost. i have other father figures to look too but its not the same as having a real father. im mad at my mom, for leaving me wiht the kids for 2 yrs to take care of other business. how can you adults leave your cherish ones! how! how!!!!! we do nothign but be the kids you would like us to be. you have kim my sister your daughter who is now on the road to mess up. trying to act like a adult when she should be enjoying life as a kid. getting into trouble. being a hard head. but no she different growing up too fast! and i have phil a brother, a son to you. who smoke weed, has all this potentinal in life but can't seem to go anywhere becuase he chooses a drug over a safe free sober life. i don't mean to put you in the spot i don't i want to love you, we all want to. i wanna be able to look at the family and know i love you guys! i hope that it will change and be better.
i pray for you dad. and for mom. to be able to show your kids how to love.....


Mike.

Day 23. something you crave for a lot

PPT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


this will be short and sweet!

something ive been craving for is PPT! i was talkign about it last night with soem friends! PPT is (power progressive tumbling) its a gym with spring boards and tramps and all this crazy stuff! i love it! :) ive been craving it for a loooooong time and im gonna actually after doing this post look up times and get it reserved for a grand time! :) anywho when i find the times and date ill be sure to let you all know! :)

Day 22. what makes you different from everyone else

hm... what makes me different from everyone else... this will be a good one! :)

Type 2 Diabetic

so i was diagnose with Diabeties back in July of 2010. 2 weeks before my 21 bday. Sucky i know! but being diabetic has taught me alot. eating healthier, be in better shape. watch what i eat. (counting calories is sooo hard... ) ha. but i know it makes me different from everyone. because its shows me to be a example like when i would hang out with my friends we would do betos runs at night after a hang out, and betos is really greasy. now when we go i just watch them eat i don't wanna stuff my face with that stuff. before it was appealing to eat that now i get sick. now im loving my life with diabeties i try to eat better im working out and slimming down! i love it! :) so yea theres one

Childhood


so i had a rough childhood. grew up too fast. had a job at like 13. working paycheck to paycheck to live. but i don't regret it cuz it taught me good work ethics and that s what everyone needs. the sad part about my childhood is i never got to see the disney movies until recently... and its just the classical ones (lion king, alladin, toy story, mulan, hercules. etc.) the list goes on. but i had a rough childhood cousins getting into gangs, my hometown you heard gunshots eveynight. it was a bad place to grow up in. then my mom made the best decision for me we packed up and moved to utah. at first i hated it but then i came by saw that no one made fun of the way i looked like before. it was a great time in my life and it only got better. when i turned 16 i joined the church! :) and now im planing on serving a mission! :) so yea

another thing is when i had to take care of my sibs alone for 2 years. it was really hard but it made me stronger and it turned me into who i am today. now my sibs and i we are closer than ever! we are just a trifecta of awesomeness! i love those two! Phil and Kim! my joys in my life.

so i would say my sickness, and the way i lived makes me different to who everyone else is.
ive gone thru alot of crap in my life my friend Kassie and Josh tell me that because of the trials i go thru. i will be a better person from it. and i truely believe that :) so there you have it. my sickness and my trails/childhood are what makes me different! haha. oh ps i can break dance too! hahaha. anywho. thata nother story for another time!